Catharsis

I heard what you said that night for sure I don't want to get in my last word I will say the truth as it comes to me But I will never truly be free Can you feel what you have done to me Can you make an end of this catastrophe I want the dog to have it all I want it all to be gone How do I explain what I'm feeling I just want it all to be gone How do I get myself rid of this feeling once and for all I said, I don't want to be the reason that this is I said, I don't want to be the reason for this disease I am not gonna fall like all of those other times I am not better than y'all even though I know that rhymes I said, you can try and stop me again But I'm just gonna say I still have my friend But I know I don't, so I smoke up a dime And I'll smoke it all night You know I will I'll feel a little bit better, but then still I'll remember what I'm going through and let it all out And you will hear the way that I am gonna yell I will shout at the top of my lungs I'll say everything's wrong And know that that is why I am singing this song 'Cause I know that deep down inside I just want to cry I want to cry And I will not let this be the reason why I said I know that I'm stronger than I make myself out to be But if I just keep going a little bit longer It might just be the end of me Do you trust what I am sayin' Or do you think I'm insane I got some thoughts in my head Can you get them out my brain I said I want to be alive But I am feeling too much pain So if you want me to survive Please don't kick me off of this train Don't kick me off 'Cause I am going somewhere where I won't get soft I know that your heartache is mine I'll see what, yes, I have yet to find And that'll be the reason that I will come back for you And that, oh, that is why I am not alive today Because I just give up, oh nay, oh nay I am alive because I am what people call Crazy