Never Lose You

I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you Yeah, always wishing I was in the sky Looking down, feeling fly But how can I touch it if I can only go there after I die I don't think I have to die for me to feel the afterlife Losing you to suicide got me feeling half alive Only living half a life yeah Every time I think about you I just hear the cries That you never made, chances that you never gave I could've saved you, I should've saved you You didn't open up, because you thought that I would hate you I know I ain't you, but you know that ain't true You didn't put your faith in me and that is painful Cause every time I needed you I knew that you had came through So how's it different, huh? I was there for you, and I would've listened But I guess it doesn't make a difference, if I try to be indifferent Agh, well I can't be, how can I go on when I'm feeling so unhappy, damn I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you All this time has past but the pain forever lasts I can not relax, try to move on then relapse Wish that you were back life would be on track But my thoughts are turning black, and I think I'm gonna crack man, yeah Why'd you do it? huh Why'd you choose it? huh Say you did it for yourself, but now I'm left with no one else And all I have is in the music, uh And the bottle I tried to drown my sorrow Tonight I might forget but I'll remember it tomorrow, damn Sitting in my car thinking I should hit the throttle Grab another bottle, try to find you at the bottom It's a problem, yeah I admit I got a problem But nobody has the answer rather keep it to myself than go anonymous I'd rather hobble barely standing, in self-consciousness Don't think you understand how you affected my self confidence I wish I could escape it but these thoughts are feeling bottomless, damn I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way 'Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you I wish I wasn't in my head so low I wish I wasn't in my own way 'Cause if I really learned to let you go I would never lose you