Fixation

I'm fucked up, in the back of the bug Got my thoughts right now, runnin' back to the plug I'm fucked up, never askin' for love Wanna drown myself, then see from above I'm tryna give myself what I need But I can't see through this mental greed It feel like they want me to fail Too faded now, so I can't really tell (I can't tell) Back and forth, I know the source I threw the torch, like I ain't gon' feel remorse Cloudy course, I hit the brakes With all the force, swervin' right, I ain't see the horse Only thing left that I see, divorce If I take this hit, it'll reinforce Only fake pеople can I re-endorsе 'Cause I hate myself, and they all support O-o-on the way to right, but I made a wrong This shit turned up, I ain't seein' dawn Jump in the whip, turn the AC on Got my foot down, now I'm a speeding pawn Hit 45, and my grip is strong With a blonde haired bitch and we yellin' songs (yellin' songs) My life feel too fuckin' long But I guess this shit where I belong Wait, oh My life too crazy I don't even even know where I been lately Better hit me with that UAV We smoked in the car, so a lil' hazy I can't see, but I got some faith Venom in me, and it's got some weight Slowin' my pace at a faster rate This life 'bout to end, and I'm sayin', "Oh, wait" I-I-I knew this shit would make me feel invincible But I just pulled up, and feel like a criminal I'm fading back, and I'm losing my visual I hit a whip, and I'm thinking it's flexible Oh, my bad Maybe I should go back to the pad Maybe I smoked too much with the pass Maybe I'm stuck in a state where I crash (where I crash) Yuh 4 a.m. and I'm feelin' wasted Had a few back then, but I still can taste it Accusations whether if I did it And I know this feeling, 'cause I fucking hate it Two blocks out, I'm alleviated Blacked out once, but that shit been dated Hoping this time it's a different statement But I just pulled up, see a blurry pavement Turn up my head, now I'm seein' blue And there lil' bro been fixated too One step out dippin', leanin' through While my body aching like I caught the flu One two cop over on the right In this intersection where it's fight or flight My decision wasn't made tonight Well, I'm moving up without a thing in sight Yeah, lil' bitch, I'm fuming (fuming) Rage impulsive movement (movement) Wonder if my mind not human (human) And everybody think I'm choosin' (choosin') And know it ain't me, but a demon (demon) Every emotion feed him (feed him) Livin' off me for the season (season) But it's just me who sees him, shit Losing my speech and I'm losing my touch I took a breath, now I'm losing the rush Mind caving in, but it ain't gettin' crushed Wonder if I'ma remember this much Losing my mind and I know where it went Back in the cell where I go to repent I'm indecisive, I live on a fence Stuck in a place where there's nowhere to vent (Nowhere to vent, nowhere to vent, nowhere to vent)