I've been relapsing
Don't know how it happened
I'm numb to the feeling
But somehow I feel everything at once
I wanna get better
But that's so much work
And I'm barely motivated to live
Or even use my lungs at all
So this is the fall out
The one where the army stops fighting
And I begin writing my last words
And I am the outcast
That not even my soul wanted
So what am I feeling for
Maybe I don't wanna feel
Anything anymore
I'm not relaxing, spent all my time wrapping
Gifts for my friends
Wish they'd extend the favor
Cause in their darkest day
I'm a phone call away
Wish they could say the same
Sometimes you need a steady friend
To stay sane
Oh, I'm not relaxing
But, I've been relapsing
So this is the fall out (fall out)
The one where the army stops fighting
And I begin writing my last words
And I am the outcast
That not even my soul wanted
So what am I feeling for
Maybe I don't wanna feel
Anything anymore
