Arduous Conundrum

The truth is both healing and deadly Truth can reveal Truth can kill What truth to you is real Let me know Many lames tried to box me in Got em stuck with the lemon face Every time I win Looney Buffoons in my presence can't pretend That they don't want me Under the earth and Smothered in dirt Mothers in black Crying in church Big body tings I can't fit up in ya hearse Oh you mad lil nigga Cuz I finally know my worth Started daily affirmations Learned to put God first Demons move better When you upgrade yourself Well I'm a steel solid solider In the army of the lord Living by the pen But not afraid to die by my sword I talk heavy Cuz I walk heavy With the Holy Spirit This divine connection Got me feeling fearless I'm wise enough to know Not to move reckless Always remain humble Cuz even the most favored man By God could yet and still Suddenly lose it all Don't get high up on your horse You just might stumble and fall No life insurance or a will Now ya family holding dead weight Meetings with ya lawyers and ain't nothing in the briefcase Moms yelling to the Lord help us for Peeps Sake Ego on ten but you softer than a cheesecake Lip service is what you give when it's time to get down That's why real triple OGs never want you around It's either put in work lil homey or it's time to kiss ground Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz These for all them dark days When I had them dark thoughts I felt so cast away from my Gods heart Like Tom when he lost Wilson I was engulfed by my emotions Like titanic in the deep I was Jack up in the ocean Drifted away from my purpose on purpose The Lords plans for me I just wouldn't conceive Couldn't believe Out of 7 billion souls that walked the earth I was the one anointed to defend God's word You should've of killed the beef Now ya out here sprawled out Homicide got ya lined up Body chalked out Revenge killings on high They bled the block out I wanna unite my people from Their masters like right now Do something big in music like Steve Stoute Let the kids back home know That somebody cares This for my day one supporters Who for me were always there I wanna build the block up with Community giving Health living Make all the mamas feel appreciated Teach them all to buy land That's how you get initiated In the black wealth club Highly anticipated Don't buy cars Cuz that value gets depreciated Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz My mark on the culture Is how I'll know I've made it Not looking for no accolades Or even to be the greatest Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion With my fam elated Cuz my destiny the devil tried But just couldn't take it My mark on the culture Is how I'll know I've made it Not looking for no accolades Or even to be the greatest Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion With my fam elated Cuz my destiny the devil tried But just couldn't take it Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz Just tryna find out who I really is And if I'm gon make it out in show biz