Now I Know

I let you down, screwed up again, Couldn't hold out until the bitter end This time I really thought I'd be fine One more chance for me to make up my mind I didn't try because I didn't care Missed opportunities all were there I knew it all but I just couldn't see Let down is all I know and all I'll be Why do I listen to what they say? When nothing ever goes my way I see the fiction before the fact Now I know there's no turning back Now I know, now I see But is it too late for me? I never wanted to captain the side Won't be the medal you wear with pride So many things that you can't have So many ways for me to make you sad I don't care about the words you said I've forgotten wishing I was dead The time has come to make my own way Failure is a word I still won't pay