Fallen Angel

Ashes from my cigarette Burning through my sofa It's 12 o'clock on the dot Can't believe I'm sober Can't afford to medicate So I decided to meditate Give up cuz it's too hard A second then it's over Job applications Keep stacking up at my front door With the past due bills Spend my last on new trills Looking for some luck I count the pedals on a clover Missing all your calls Sorry I don't want to talk much I just took a deep fall I just hit the bottom Feelings that I keep off Breaking me Aging me And changing me I'm the one who seem to cause problems Inside My ride Two seat You me New wife New life My child My seed Get high We fly The sky We see Our soon To be Our goals Our dreams Inside My ride Two seat You me New wife New life My child My seed Get high We fly The sky We see Our soon to be Our goals our Change my bio pic There's something wrong with my complexion I can't have a million people see this face without discretion Plastic how I'm living but I'm used to fake impressions Me telling you I'm happy is the thing that keeps me stressing I can't deal with peoples words they seem to hit me like the hardest An opinions an opinion but I've heard it for the longest They say the ones who struggle always seem to be the strongest I'm loosing weight And loosing faith So tell me what strong is On this Dark drink Not a drinker But I wanna know just how the dark thinks Drunk as hell I need a reason why Life ain't simplified My nine to five is starting to stink Passing by Time is passing by Faster then I think Forever And ever And ever I'm falling Forever And ever And ever I'm falling Missing all your calls Sorry I don't wanna talk much I just took a deep fall I just hit the bottom Feelings that I keep off Breaking me Aging me Changing me I'm the one who seem to cause problems Inside My ride 2 seat You me New wife New life My child My seed Get high We fly The sky We see Our soon To be Our goals Our dreams PTSD roaming through my conscience From the day that I was born I was one of God archangles Til, he saw my truer form This punishment something I can't endure Walking round with head down Never to the sky I've been shunned By the holy one I'm what he despise I guess life I got on earth May just be my second chance And if that's the plan I wish he could've told me in advance