Queen of Spiraling

Driving home from Ellie's house to mine Forced to be alone with my mind I've been spending way too much time Trying to please everybody Don't know where I rank in their lives Yeah, it's heavier than it should be Stuck in between what's happening And what could be Feeling inside out Don't know what to do now Talking to myself out loud I'm good at breaking the heart in me But better at crying until I sleep I'm the queen The queen of spiraling Finding holes in everything I say Drowning out the sound of reason in my self pity Feeling like the ballerina from my nightstand When I was little and the spinning wouldn't stop, yeah When I grew, yeah, I knew that it would all have to change And I'm feeling inside out Don't know what to do now Talking to myself out loud I'm good at breaking the heart in me But better at crying until I sleep I'm the queen The queen of spiraling, spiraling, hey But now it's heavier than it should be Right now I'm fragile and falling into the deep And I'm feeling inside out Don't know what to do now Don't know what to do now When I'm talking to myself out loud I'm good at breaking the heart in me Better at crying until I sleep I'm the queen The queen of spiraling