Convenient

Everyone leaves... The convenience of me isn't so convenient anymore... You see... when people see a light in you When they know and can sense your healing aura Its only that they seek after Never thinking you'll run out of it Never thinking you'll lose sight of it Never thinking you are human You are just the well that never runs dry They latch on to you They hold on to you And never let go... Waiting for you to grace them with more than they intended to take They do not fear rejection because they know you will never say no There is no chance that they wouldn't succeed in their recovery Because your heart is the blueprint to what needed to be felt in the first place But they rather just feel your hands Being familiar with your heart requires them To take their time and be careful with it They just needed a quick fix No need for a permanent residence Never leave a two-week notice Never a warning or smoke signal Never a goodbye or farewell They just leave... everyone leaves When they done... when they have what they want When they have what they need... they fucking leave... Everyone fucking leaves This... this has become normal for me Or maybe I just settled for that There lies a box of white flags Still pure never used... But for you... I should have used them for you... When you came around, I actually believed you when you said you'd stay It wasn't your words that convinced me... it was your eyes Your hurt was intriguing... it matched mine... soul ties Two abandoned people becoming a united front... You said you wouldn't leave... you said you wouldn't run But here I am losing my breath trying to keep up with you I never cared about keeping my soul in shape... I trained my emotions to only be subjected to giving and not receiving I put my mind on a diet only allowing it to be consumed With knowing attachment is not an option Home is not with anyone else but yourself But you did what others couldn't and created space for me You offered me the deed in exchange for trust... Trust that you were different Trust that your eyes would not lie to me And they didn't... they told the truth even When you didn't want them too Your eyes could never lie to me... Even if I was blind, I could see Everything you tried to be for me But this... this doesn't feel like home... You thought you could be more than the footprints That were left ahead of you When you stepped forward, your foot was the perfect fit... You feel that don't you? Everything they felt too The aura... the energy... the frequency... Its loud in your ear... feeling feels that you thought could never be filled You feel complete now, don't you? Got some strength now, don't you? Feel the sun on your skin now, don't you? Yea, I know that's usually how it goes... Get what you need and leave... I fooled myself thinking you were different... But let me give credit where credit is due... At least you stayed longer than what most do... I was just convenient for you... There is no need to try and convince me other wise No need to try and sympathize with what I feel inside Or the thoughts that's roaming through my mind because... You put them there I guess this is what you call a parting gift? There is nothing that you can give me now That should have been given to me then Welcome to the land of disappointment... You've become like everyone else ... You got what you needed right? Got what you wanted ... You good now?... So just... leave Because... everyone fucking leaves... You got what you need... just... leave... please... And... don't come back this time... Because... I'm tired of just being convenient for you...