Going Hard For

Lately I been feeling like I don't know what to do I don't know who to turn to My aunt that's alive right now, she tell me to look towards God My mama tell me the same thing My dead aunt, she'd tell me the same thing too But how do you feel If you don't think God hear you? I be thinking bout my auntie So I look up to the sky-y-y-y Like what I'm going hard for? (Word from the wise) Aye what's my purpose in this life? I wanna know why I'm ali-i-i-ive Like what I'm going hard for? (Don't be surprised) I work myself into the ground I'ma work until I die-ie-ie-ie Like what I'm going hard for? (Red in my eyes) Got so much pain up in my heart That you can see it in my eye, eye, eye, eyes Like what I'm going hard for? (From tears I've cried) I walk around like everything supposed to be perfect ('Sposed to be perfect!) I live a life where you gone always see me working (Always see me working!) I just wanna kick this feeling like I'm empty I don't wanna be alone, but I can't let you near me (No, no) It's not your fault that I got bit up by them snakes Seen them red flags, and I ignored them anyway (Anyway) The love I gave was real, but the love I got was fake (Chilling) I live a life of sin and regret none of my mistakes (Hell naw!) I just want somebody loyal to show me different Spare me all of the confusions and mixed feelings You don't wanna be like Jigsaw when them tables flip (No you don't) Cause it's all fun and games til somebody get killed! I be thinking bout my auntie So I look up to the sky-y-y-y Like what I'm going hard for? (Word from the wise) Aye what's my purpose in this life? I wanna know why I'm ali-i-i-ive Like what I'm going hard for? (Don't be surprised) I work myself into the ground I'ma work until I die-ie-ie-ie Like what I'm going hard for? (Red in my eyes) Got so much pain up in my heart That you can see it in my eye, eye, eye, eyes (From tears I've cried) Like what I'm going hard for? (J-A-Y!) Every choice I make (Choice I make!) Brings me one step closer, to the dreams I chase (Dreams I chase!) I'm tryna do what I love, not tolerate shit I hate Ya gotta know both sides I know that that's what it takes To make the payoff of what you're working towards feel that much sweeter Gotta go hard for what you want, but never get too eager! Because you shouldn't rush God, but he's the kind that forgives The worst mistake you can make's confusing your timing with his Hate that my mind's where it is It's just been stuck in this place! I'm my own worst enemy, when I get stuck in my ways My grandma told me to pray Give things some time and they'll change I talk to God all the time That's still not easing the pain Jay! I be thinking bout my auntie So I look up to the sky-y-y-y Like what I'm going hard for? (Word from the wise) Aye what's my purpose in this life? I wanna know why I'm ali-i-i-ive Like what I'm going hard for? (Don't be surprised) I work myself into the ground I'ma work until I die-ie-ie-ie Like what I'm going hard for? (Red in my eyes) Got so much pain up in my heart That you can see it in my eye, eye, eye, eyes Like what I'm going hard for? (From tears I've cried)