I Am

Ay Ay ay ay Ay I am alive I am awake I am online I am ok I am everything that I thought I would never be But don't say I I did it without help I Did it by myself I'm Raising all high hell I'm Doing these Doing design Is it a crime Only with time Can I tell Where exactly I fell Life is in pastel Shout out to Michelle Shout out to the void Shout out to the deep Shout out to the that really saved Me Ay Ayo I am not insane I am just in pain I promise that I'm better when I'm inebriated Inside of my head In the inner workings My machinations Form an enigma It stays lurking It is tryna hurt me Smooth like Satan Steady with charisma I am alive I am awake I am online yes I am ok I am everything that I thought I would never be I am now a better me Look at what's ahead of me I am alive I am awake I am online I am ok I am everything that I thought I would never be Never be Never be Ugh I am reborn I am deformed I am restored My thoughts distort I thought before I could be more I had to be below my damn High horse I am reborn I am deformed I am restored My thoughts distort I thought before I could be more I had to be below my damn I am alive I am awake I am online and I am ok I am everything that I thought I would never be But I found my way My way to the better me I am alive I am awake I am online I am ok I am everything that I thought I would never be Never be Never be Again