I'm too old to feel so broken
By someone who does not know me
Better than I know myself
But now I'm running through the streets all hurried
Doing things just to distract me
From a man who doesn't even care
But I only feel alive when I'm with you
And I only feel excited when I'm playing your stupid games
I know just how to stop feeling so blue
But I only feel alive when I'm in pain
I have made a list just to state
All the things you do that I hate
You are vain
And possibly a psychopath
But when you look at me that way
I say things I don't mean to say
I don't care about the aftermath
'Cause I only feel alive when I'm with you
And I only feel excited when I'm playing your stupid games
I know just how to stop feeling so blue
But I only feel alive when I'm in pain
And I want a real love that I know you cannot give
(That I know you cannot give)
I want honesty not this hollow lie I live (ooh)
What is it about me that I cannot say goodbye?
I know I'll be alright
But then I wonder why
I only feel alive when I'm with you
Why I only feel excited when I'm playing your stupid games
I know I have to walk away, it's true
And learn to feel alive without the pain
