Always Lose

Feels like I'm crossing a line when I'm crossing my fingers Like I'm walking on thorns, like I can't pull out the splinters I've lost my will to chase And I've lost track of all the names I keep telling myself I can change, I can change I keep lying 'cause I'm only saving face Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you How the fuck am I supposed to heal these wounds? Black and blue, can't see through Black and blue Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you I'm at the same dead end, the lonely space in my head With my past coming back to shatter my hopes again I'm scared of holding on 'Cause I've lost my grip for way too long I keep telling myself I can change, I can change I keep lying 'cause I'm only saving face Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you How the fuck am I supposed to heal these wounds? Black and blue, can't see through Black and blue Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you I wonder, could it be worse? Am I bound to hurt forever? I wonder, could it be worse? Am I bound to hurt forever? Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you How the fuck am I supposed to heal these wounds? Black and blue, can't see through Black and blue Feels like I always lose When I open up, I end up without you