Opening Letters

Pen click Speaking letters into existence Not so optimistic it's hard to be Positive when my thoughts Are just diminishing my essence Today I met him, the man in the Reflection It was all a misunderstanding cause it's all About perception When where why did things go awry And how do I go about facing fears Now? I try but I Cant hear myself out When the thoughts are so loud Breathe in breathe out I saw then I see now It ain't what it seems when the ink And I just bleed out now Enter my thoughts as the spoken Letters are introduced Exposing all my little known truths Excessive reminiscing left Exposed Roots I'm Sick of gifting my presence so my Absence is excused I need to see more leverage, Conflict And c4 I'm tryna diffuse Shout out all the fallen troops Am I next to fall too? Am I next to fall Nah I told myself I cannot lose I can't lose Loose lips got me speaking for the Dead in my head Blue feelings but I'm angry at my Reflection so I'm seeing red Still live with no regrets except Those few times I pressed send Never leave the letters unread I'll never leave these letters unsaid no Thought about it And I gotta really find the balance With my mind soul and body cause I'm steady on the run like I caught a Body Trapped here Will I make it out it Imma find a way don't you ever Doubt it Obstacles will I make it round it Wondering my mind goin round and Round and round Wonder wondering if Imma make it Out ok Wonder wondering if the devil is Here to stay Been holding back so I got a lot to say Contemplate on what made me this Way And the leads me straight to this page Longing for a certain sense of Maturity Searching for permanent purity Lurkin' cause I don't feel safe around People I really need social security Journaling wars it just did occur to Me I'm my own obstacle nobody's Hurdling Worshipping higher powers surely But I Can't be sure if gods real until Somebody murders me Opening letters, opening words, Opening verse Open my heart, blood and love Dispersing No hate, I love whats hurtin Tryna wrap my head around the Thoughts in it man I live, sin, ask god to forgive And Repeat repeat repeat I foresee I'm One sin away from hell again Apologies for my actions and lack of Words On that note I'm Leaving no stone Unturned Leaving No tale untold leaving No Info disclosed This is just the way life unfolds And so it goes What's your address Got some things to address I can Send you a message Considering transgressions I been Feelin' less yeah my heart is stuck in The past tense While my mind is tryna plot on What's next I'm Wondering wondering if imma make It out ok Wonder wondering if the devil is Here to stay Holding back so I got a lot to say, got A lot to say, lot to say wait Don't wait Contemplate on what made me this Way And the leads me straight to this page