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dembek
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I been working on
Emotional maturity
Financial security
Still got time to murder beats
You probably never heard of me
Had to get ahead of this depression I been hurdling
Had to find some clarity this therapy like Claritin
I been living my life on my own terms
Focused on myself and on the long term
I'm done giving love without no loan terms
Kept my heart too open it's a gift but a lonely curse yeah
Maybe there's love for me somewhere out there in the multiverse
Variations of past lovers that's deserve to get traversed
But these days I put myself first
Used to sip on casual flings just to quench the thirst
Now I got a little drive like a chauffeur
Saw a therapist he helped me find a road to closure
Building up my credit little steps since I been sober
Still dealing with stress but getting better with composure
Used to get defensive over criticism
Used to just deflect the confrontation into cynicism
I could not accept the confirmation of how I was living
Stuck feeling insecure without the proper motivation
Witnessing success of all my peers while I was stagnant
Codependent to all of my exes like an addict
Put the blame on them when they left cuz they couldn't stand it
Took some time to self reflect to finally understand shit
I was sleeping in the bed I made
Insecurities engrained since I was in the 7th grade
Subconsciously I took the blame the day my father walked away
A lot more changed on that adoption day than just a name
It turned me to a walking ticking time bomb
Tripping off the spice opened up my mind's blind spot
Repressed depression took possession over my thoughts
Everyday emotions were on shuffle like an iPod
10 years a struggle looking back like where's the time gone
10 years in limbo I felt like it's all just time lost
5 years sober guess I'm not as bad as I thought
Almost jumped ship and drank Jack when she left me
Rose above I still ain't drank jack since I went clean
Right now I'm the best me, money I'm investing
Counting all my blessings, continue progressing
Finally addressing subconscious oppression
This shit like a chess game and I'm playing in the end game
I been getting money yeah I'm all about my check, mate
Writer(s): Dylan Dembek
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