When I Fall Asleep

When I fall asleep I just reach for a hand that's not there No it's not there And I try to scream but I'm so incomplete that nothing comes out but air I cannot see, it's so dark in my dreams It's so cold, I feel so cold It seems like it's over 'till it come back bolder It's so old, this feeling's so old When I fall asleep I just hold my own hand knowing it will never be yours It's not as bad as it seems 'till my brain just gets mean And the memories come back more It's really not that bad, why am I so sad? I'll grab my things and leave I'll leave you in the past hoping that this is the last time My heart makes me bleed (but) I thought that this was meant to be I got hurt when I just felt like me oh I thought that love was meant for me I guess there's nothing that you can get for free oh But have I satisfied your need? Have I satisfied your needs for your love oh Have I satisfied your greed? Tell me what you want I'll leave when it's enough oh I could be whoever you want me to be Why don't you ever just love me for me Under the weather, as cold as could be I think it's better if you let me be I could be whoever you want me to be Why don't you ever just love me for me Under the weather, as cold as could be I think it's better if you let me be (but) When I fall asleep I just reach for a hand that's not there No it's not there And I try to scream but I'm so incomplete that nothing comes out but air I cannot see, it's so dark in my dreams It's so cold, I feel so cold It seems like it's over 'till it come back bolder It's so old, this feeling's so old When I fall asleep I just hold my own hand knowing it will never be yours It's not as bad as it seems 'till my brain just gets mean And the memories come back more It's really not that bad, why am I so sad? I'll grab my things and leave I'll leave you in the past hoping that this is the last time My heart makes me bleed