Morse Code

Uh, and I'm lost But no I'm not far Gotta go and stay strong Open up a new door I can't struggle no more No no I've been trying Fighting I wanna be smiling I know The tears will pour I may just grow You never know yeah Just let me know yeah Feel like I can only be myself when I'm with myself But I barely can think for myself without nobody help Stagnant days, Crashing waves, You See, I stay in my shell Strictly based around the past Poignant pain I've felt Pointing past the joy probably just Floating in and out of consciousness Got no god or soul to trust Where is the euphoria Tears falling on dust on floors due to Unresponsiveness from those Close to us Gone too long I know someone Substance abuse Stuck and confused No Compass to use I'm Reluctant to rules Upset and bruised No tools you use Could improve my mood Or how I move This life's a game and I only lose When I die, can I see my stats When I die, can I run it back What if I was too young for that But if I went back how long would I Last? It's too late I gotta move on Sorry mom I'll see you soon My baby was just born I just passed the baton Uh, and I'm gone But no I'm not far No no I'm not lost Gotta go and stay strong You can't struggle no more No momma I was trying Fighting I want you smiling I know The tears will pour You may just grow You never know yeah Just let me know yeah My thoughts be full of hope til the Sun down Hurt cause I'm my parents only son Now 1 Down, 1 up working til the sun Come round here Yeah coulda went in bros path Instead But I was scared to grow up fast Daddy wasn't there Life ain't fair no From childhood I got scars on my Knees and elbows From my teenage years I got scars on My mind and my soul Lord knows Why we chose the paths we chose Sending in hidden messages, Morse Code I been in battle fields before Blood on my shirt, my wardrobe Gotta move in a different fashion Every since my father's absence I've been missing a fraction Every since my brothers passing I've been split into fragments The last thing he told me was "I need To hear your rapping" So I'd be lacking If I don't chase my passion And grasp it Lookin inside that casket Couldn't believe you was gone Thought you was gon pull thru I Cant believe that I was wrong Guess you are where you belong I'll do it for you and mom Knocked off our feet but we Headstrong Head on, foot on the pedal I won't let Off And I'm gone No no I'm not far Gotta go and put on Open up some new doors We can't struggle no more No momma I been trying Fighting I want us smiling I know The tears will pour We may just grow You never know yeah Just let me show ya