In The Middle

My emotions are coming in waves I go between good and bad days All we've been through is hard to erase Will it ever fade? How long will it take? I hate when our friends invite me to the parties out of pity They ask me how I've been And the answer is not that pretty Someday, I know this won't be as painful Someday, I'm gonna say God is faithful But I can't find the words, it's not that simple 'Cause I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle I can't say all the pretty words And pretend like it doesn't hurt Say God is bigger than all of my trials I know that it's true, but it feels like denial Oh, I hate that now, all I have to hold on to are the memories But every time that I've been found It was right there, in my despair Someday, I know this won't be as painful Someday, I'm gonna say God is faithful But I can't find the words, it's not that simple 'Cause I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle I'm gonna see the meaning of this madness I'm gonna the beauty in the ashes But honestly, right now it's not that simple 'Cause I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle Yeah-eah, yeah-eah Middle of the dark, middle of my mess The other side's not far, but my heart's just not there yet I'll find my way out, but it's okay that now I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle Someday, I know this won't be as painful Someday, I'm gonna say God is faithful When I can't find the words, it's not that simple I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle I'm gonna see the meaning of this madness I'm gonna be the beauty in the ashes But honestly right now it's not that simple I'm right in the middle, I'm right in The middle