Physician's Position (feat. Modezart, Pamela Wible MD & NU-Intel)

The greatest part of life is giving life In my opinion, my decision Led me down to a path always envisioned Physician, the hours are long Felt a bit guilty When I took a position Way on the outskirts of the city Cuz I know my family's gonna miss me Can feel the heartbreak prick my lips When my partna kiss me But she loves me so she understands The passion that I'm discovering delivering A newborn baby with my own hands Looked in his deep, dark-brown, round eyes Mesmerized, soft enough to make a grown man cry No lie I hand him back to his mama The room grew silent For a moment I was in Nirvana Left them in private Damn, I walked up out the building Feeling like the fuckin man Until life sent a humbling message Missed calls, hundreds of texts Emergency asking for presence The feeling I felt was unpleasant Hopped in my car and I tailed it Walked in the room and I felt the Heaviness of the horrors that I saw Murphy's law After all we're professionals Hold emotions in and never let em go No Keep them inside Sit by the family's side Second by second I see the light Is fading out their eyes Until there's nothing left Call time of death We stood by his side until his last breath Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know Yeah ah Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know My forehead is soaked Hands are cold as ice How do you break it to a family That they lost a life? Then drive home to my family And try to go to sleep at night I toss and turn until I see the morning light Then you do it again And you gotta pretend You didn't see what you did Ain't that some shit?! But who am I to complain?! The nurse right next to me Experienced the same thang How do you look into his mother's eyes? Fight back my tears while I explain Why her son has died Years of schooling don't prepare you For this side of life No time to process still I got a patient in the next room Mad cuz they ain't got their pills Enough to break your will Enough to make you quit Felt like this for years and I ain't proud of it And the hospital's ill Sick of their politics Short on our staff but hire another neurologist Like what the fuck Depression creepin' round the corner Pop a couple pills Mix with alcohol and marijuana Barrel to my dome What's the point of a diploma When I'm paying on these loans Sinking deeper in this hole I'm in Sobering Heavy is the head that I'm shouldering I been pickin out the casket I'll be loaded in But my family's on my mind It's been hard for me to describe All the pain and the pressure I been holding in I wanna let it go Wanna release it Wanna be there for my wife and daughter Lord know that they need me Been a ghost around the house It's been weeks since they seen the real me Guess I had to hit rock bottom To get a view of the ceiling Damn it was revealing How deep I really hurt But I buried it in work Then I covered it in dirt I could use a fuckin hand Cuz it's only getting worse Had to take a chance Maybe therapy would work Therapy would work Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know Yeah ah Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know Yeah Doctor 5, what brings you in? Um, I just feel I need someone to talk to I'm glad you're here. What's been bothering you? I don't know where to start Any place is a good place to start How you feeling now? Sad, all the time What's making you feel so sad? Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know Yeah ah Wake up It's getting late bruh Peace to Father Time And respect to Mother Nature Guess ya never know When ya gonna meet ya maker Better take it slow Life mo precious than ya know