Good Enough for God

Father, this is my confession, sending it from bloody knees Save me from this sick obsession of wishing you were proud of me Anything for your affection, overdosed on wine and bread The introspection's just a weapon, and it'll be the cause of death I wouldn't blame you for pretending not to hear me pray I bet you're sick of watching me make all the same mistakes Know I've been distant, I'm not trying to take the easy way I just can't imagine any paradise that's worth this pain I've had my darkest thoughts, trying to get to heaven Twisted my mind in knots, trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to hell, but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost, tryin' to be good enough for God Good enough for God All my deepest scars are mental, from living with this quietly My body has become a temple for all of my anxieties My core beliefs are so judgmental, I worship in the church they built If I can't let this go, I don't know if I can live with all this guilt I've had my darkest thoughts, trying to get to heaven Twisted my mind in knots, trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to hell, but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost, tryin' to be good enough for God Good enough for God Some days I let myself get angry 'cause I tried my best Then overthink it, hit the gaslight, start to second-guess The biggest question in my head, I don't know how to tell Am I a failure, or did you just set me up to fail? Am I a failure, or did you just set me up to fail? Am I a failure, or did you just set me up to fail? I've had the darkest thoughts, trying to get to heaven Twisted my mind in knots, trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to hell, but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost, tryin' to be good enough for God (Father, this is my confession) (Sending it from bloody knees) good enough for God (Save me from this sick obsession) (Of wishing you were proud of me) good enough for God Father, this is my confession Sending it from bloody knees (good enough for God) Father, this is Father, this is Father, this is my confession