A Familiar Direction

Straight down, a familiar direction Stay out, never wanted at home Too busy backing myself into a corner Too late to figure out the things I don't know Same round, another year in a cycle Laid out, each time a heavier blow I must've turned myself around in the moment I could've put it down a decade ago A million ways that I could start it again To lift a heavier head Too scared of moving the wrong way I promise everything is going to plan I want to lay in my own sunlight again Deserve to lie in my skin Give myself over to something Instead I'm counting all the lines in my hands Came to, laying out in the open Bold colors floating over my head I'll have some answers when I wake in the morning 'Til then I'm clueless as to where to begin Bleed red, another drop in an ocean Sharks circle at the foot of my bed Celebrate another year in the making Treading water trying not to forget A million ways that I could start it again To lift a heavier head Too scared of moving the wrong way I promise everything is going to plan I want to lay in my own sunlight again Deserve to lie in my skin Give myself over to something Instead I'm counting all the lines in my hands