Don't Wanna Be

[Verse 1: Psiklone] I take life for granted made mistakes in the past Don't want to harbour so much hate in my heart [You feel me?] Found my way through dark And only by closing my open eyes and taking a chance I wanna make my family proud And show those that I love that I ain't standing round I hate backing down, hate lashing out Hate that I hate so much – what is this hate rant about? I don't wanna be this negative person Pessimistic, perfectionist obsessively working Always anxiety ridden It's like my mind's in Rhyme Asylum inside of a prison It's a blessing and a curse I just want us heard and to get the respect that we deserve I need to stop and breathe Cos in reality there ain't nothing stopping me be what I wanna be [Chorus] Don't make me be, don't make me be Don't make me be, don't make me be [Verse 2: Possessed] I'ma go it alone, on my own rowing this boat, No-one to throw me a rope Feel like I'm lost at sea Tryna make waves, on this endless expanse of monotony And I gotta be what I wanna be Or else it's like telling my heart not to beat Telling my lungs not to breathe Inspirations an island just beyond my reach Chances are few and far between On an ocean with nowhere to plant my seeds And you reap what you sow It's getting dark, I keep an eye on my beacon of hope Hope in every vein and capillary My message in a bottle is my name on the pages of history I got two ores One named determination and the others name is ability [Repeat Chorus] [Verse 3: Skirmish] This me ain't the way that I wanna be Now I know its the way that I gotta be I've had my heart broken before Another persons actions controlling my emotions and thought Love is a battlefield - I'm a soldier at war People saying "I don't know him no more" The old me's dead and gone, I got away with murdering him So my split personality holding the fort Now I gotta look deep my older said "don't regret anything that makes you smile that's how it should be" And so I took heed Now I live my life, a different guy but miss the nights I could sleep Thinking isn't it funny I used to be in control but I'm driven by women and money In this eternal search for a pot of gold Where I've lost my soul and my hearts gotten cold [Repeat Chorus]