Cantaloupe's and Natural Calm

Sitting in this comfort inn, man workings got me fucked up Slow down Swear to god I'm 'bout to lose my mind and hit the Road now Work and go to sleep, wake up, repeat, that's how it Goes now 8 p.m. or something, I don't know This town's a joke Got some cantaloupes and natural calm, I think I'll be alright I'll write a section for my blessings What I got and what I don't Should probably lay down close my eyes around 11, probably won't 'Cause I stress too much Like I'm obsessed with it I swear anxiety's my bitch And I'ma undress it Or maybe address it Fuck it I talk about too much Summer went by way too quick 2 days turned into 2 months It's hot as fuck in September Pounding in my left temple 'Cause this bed sucks I would probably give my left nut To be stress free, on an island in the sea On a jet ski, with a breeze flowing through my teeth On a beach, sipping tea under the trees Sometimes I think about what if And I forget about what isn't I swear it's like I'm locked inside my mind, in a prison I'ma shine I don't give a shit I'll just learn to deal with it This room is cold and dark, and man I really just ain't feeling it But Call of Duty helps me pass the time until I get back If you tryna 1v1 you prolly' need to sit back Who I used to be, carefree, man I miss that Shoutout to my past, current me here's a diss track Fuck your stupid panic disorder you hypochondriac Life is too short to be missing out, I used to smoke and laugh After work sitting in my car 'til the sunlight Rolling up then hit the Xbox feeling alright Yeah, shoot for the stars, right? How can I reach 'em when gravity just hits me broadside? Fuck it, I'm diving into the summit Maybe I'll make it through and say "It wasn't so bad, was it?" So I thought about a hook but I said fuck it, I'ma write it out Good job, good friends, tell me what's to cry about? Copenhagen on my mind I guess I'm 'bout to give in That shit been with me every single lyric that I've written I guess, it's a part of me Yes, it's a problem It's a battle with some demons, man, I wonder how I got 'em I've been, at the bottom I've been, full throttle Need to slow it down a little bit Ferrari to Miata This, office that I'm sitting in, a home away from home No, I in team, but I would rather sit alone And daydream of what happens when you up and leave your castle To another country but I wonder, is it worth the hassle? It wasn't, maybe it was, yeah I don't know exactly I was searching for some artificial things to make me happy But I'm glad I did it I found peace for a minute I been feeling empty, yeah But fuck it I'ma keep living