Lost (feat. Muga)

Way to hard to fit in was forced to stand out Left momma crib found myself in gma Pam house I was reading scriptures Baggin work at gma Pam house Left it out, Damn I gotta hear my grandma Pam mouth Couldn't see Niyah she up the block from grandma Pam house Baby moms fucking up the block from grandma Pam house Wanted to let the gun ring by grandma Pams house Bell rang police came to grandma Pams house I was down bad nigga, I'm talkin my last Nigga Ain't think I would last nigga, had no where to crash nigga Used to hate to ask niggas, for anything Rather starve n bust my ass nigga on everything Member crying with my daughter ain't a dollar to my name Made a band the next day blew it dog was so ashamed Made another the next week but I ain't do the same thing This time I grabed my daughter up n hit a mini shopping spree Complications shit be complicated Niggas watching grandma porch niggas commentating Niggas always got a comment, niggas always hatin Get you flamed, I'm the God but my son is Satan Remember that I remember Aunty Ruth helped me fix my re up She ain't even know, love her more then I speak of I remember Aunty Ruth helped me fix my re up And Grandma Pa let me stay when I acted like I ain't need her What does loyalty really mean I put my friends before my fam I put my wants before the families needs I am so ashamed it's like I don't my name Anymore... Im lost Biggest mistake was probably this, turning my back on my kid over some shit her mother did When I came to my senses, it was to late she on some other shit I can't even blame her,I just keep trying I gotta run wit it Crying to myself, I blame myself leave it in Gods hands Told my daughter in the letter that this here is Gods plan Pops told me to play my hand,never move too early And just be cuz I think it's time don't gotta go 730 Lost focus in a hurry, shot that shit like Stephen curry Never told my brothers that shit turned to a mad man Took me for my shit, I made some choices things happen I'm Praying that he live god, cuz I am not a bad man Just hate feelin disrespected used to hate feeling neglected When my pieces wasn't hittin when them niggas wasn't reppin When ya back against the wall will fold or stand tall Old bitches fuckin bros, I wish the best to both of y'all These niggas got me in my bag now, Never put that bag down now Ain't looking like no clown now I'm lookin at the clowns now Picture perfect always question was it worth it When watchin a star float, while you niggas sittin a float I just hope You niggas know, you was my motivation Wanted this shit my whole life, I'm so over waitin Back in grandma crib house I lost so much patience We gotta get it we gon take fuck it we over waiting, we over waiting Anytime I cry on it know that it's a body bag I'm just tryna land mind the same place my body at Used to fall n scrap my shit look around where my mommy at P would pick me up, dust me off & tell me run it back Gotta get my vision right gotta get my sister right Working overtime fuckin eatin man I could miss tonight Working overtime fuck sleepin man I could miss tonight Cuz if Niyah grow up around here then I ain't living right