Pain

Being young I damn sure I had a temper I used to back out so some things I don't remember I was all about action for me it wasn't talking Mama thought I need someone to talk to often I got in brawls that resulted in pending charges Getting handcuffed in school she nearly losted it I'm not here to glorify I'm giving you the real me Way before I could get a haircut and muscles Mama love used cut my hair shit was funny I had to same pair of new balances felt type bumy When pops left it felt like my soul left Finding Nemo for pops but I had a hole net I used to play football but only did it cause him When he left I was like what's the point to win I started a fire up in my bathroom Acting out in classrooms Talking to consulor They say you a bad dude As time went on my anger got worst It's like I carried the pain with me and that shit hurt I wanted to gangbang so nas put me on After a while i knew it felt wrong I'm still fighting niggas left and right Breaking point came when I almost lost my life Me and von and niggas about to beat some nigga up We was gonna jump him but a nigga saved him that's his luck He like we shooting fair one little nigga I said nah we about violate this nigga He say try something and you getting shot little nigga Von held me back he know I ain't afraid of nothing I'm looking at him and he looking at me von like he ain't bluffing I remember when I ain't have clothes I used to borrow Vons Not good at money managing what kind of time you on Come to find out she owe the irs 17 racks That shit made me want to take the weight off her shoulders and put it all on my back So I hustle not for me but for the bills I'm just being real But I kept it low key In school niggas would act like they know me I remember bitches want looking when I had the same clothes This money made them change flows Now it's kissy faces and hugs But I'm beneficial in your eyes you not getting no love Wanted to be in the A but I got hurt too much I stopped playing all todgether I probably lost my touch I started acting in drama class thinking positive I sold out my school auditorium that's my accomplishments Music would always linger My senior year I was in choir class yeah i was a singer That shit added on to my catalog but I still wasn't going hard Working at the movie theater thinking if I put in the work ima go far Me and trey drop a mixtape but it got overshadowed the Me and trey won the talent show but it got overshadowed Niggas egos not stroked then they don't want you in the picture A lot of niggas used to be my niggas But I'm over that Anything I ever said I hope you know it's facts Living in that hotel senior year shit I ain't t going back You wanted a open page to my life and you got it I worked hard to get here trust me I ain't stopping They say I look like I got a attitude and they wonder why I'm yin and yang in other words I'm a Gemini It seem like love become visible when you in the dirt 2015 in November it left me hurt Grandma died it put in in a dark space I realize that a lot of family all fake My older sister really set an example She got her masters while being a other and wife now that's a handful My other sister still trying to find herself again just focus on the positive Real shit you don't need a man It's one in particular he know who he is and what he did if I catch you Ima whoop your ass like you my kid My brother and sister We barley talk to each other Don't hit me if you need something just check up on your brother I got my other brother AJ he was destined for greatness He. Fucked up his chances he could've made it But it's still love Which I rarely give now it's been 14 years auntie when we gonna sit down Nana still believe in the word faithfully I just don't want a Mac in my face I ain't talking Mabellen Niggas saying they shooters but y'all need to move on Your shots and hitting you need to work on your form I pray for my enemies because you never know when I might snap I just take deep breaths and learn to relax Am I perfect nah I'm far from it I got layers to me people don't know I'm like a onion I said my grief and trust me all is forgiven I felt like this was made for me and it was written I'm just saying your raps better reflect what you living Since all I know is pain that's what I'm giving Late nights and early mornings with a vision I'm a man now I gotta make my own decisions Me and re been through a lot of shit but she held it down no questions She keep me leveled when I'm not in possession of my balance I got my rowdy ways about me so sometimes I be wildin As days goes on I know that my time is slowly approaching And I'm next up nigga if you ain't fucking notice