Not Today

Not today, Just not today, Please not today, I don't really got time to stop and talk But don't take it personal I been up all night with my son I'm tryn'a reach the doc before he close I'm stressed out, upset, the lack of sleep got me emotional And its that time of the month just to really f****n piss me off I'm feelin' self-conscious Just need me a little space So Mr. Media, ya betta' take ya camera out my face Not today, I got things on my mind Not today, Now ain't that the place or time Not today, I'll do it all any other day Just not today, please not today I don't mind signing an autograph But you the 99th person to ask And all I really wanna do is break down and cry Cause a close family friend just passed I know you already booked the studio But at the mo' my head can't cope I'm aware that I made a commitment But I never knew my heart would be broke I'm dealing with some issues Believe me I don't mean to be rude Only human, forgive me, if you sense a little attitude Now let me get one thing clear I know its ya'll that keep my here And I'm grateful like you could never know More thankful than I could ever show But if, you could sympathize from just a second I reckon you could understand where I'm coming from Sometimes when I'm steppin' out my house I aint steppin' out as Dynamite I'm stepping out as Mum Tryna' spend some quality time with my son. Whew! If you could understand This weren't the way I planned, its gotten out of hand Sometimes I feel I don't even know when I am Since I picked up the mic, my private life don't exist Love my job, but I never know I was signing up for this Dealing with makeup's and breakups gotta smile and be strong Clearing with heartache and heartbreak, but the show must go on