Pray for Forgiveness

Beautiful garden where have you gone My self-delusions are leaving me in the storm Taking for granted all the goodness that I've found Somewhere I lost all, the control came crashing down And I pray for forgiveness, look for the answers Cuz it's hard for me to pretend Look to my mother, call to the captain Can't you see this state that I'm in And no one would know this, nobody noticed Cuz it's me where it begins Beautiful morning please don't wake me from my sleep Cuz I need some comfort to regain my sanity And I don't wanna feel this crazy, I don't wanna feel discarded Shattered into million pieces I'm so brokenhearted Nowhere left to run Nowhere left to go So I hope And I pray for forgiveness, look for the answers Cuz it's hard for me to pretend Look to my mother, call to the captain Can't you see this state that I'm in And no one would know this, nobody noticed That it's me where it begins And I pray for forgiveness within I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me I think of every little stupid mistake that has been made This time I don't have the strength to gather myself And I'm falling to pieces And I pray for forgiveness, look for the answers Cuz it's hard for me to pretend Look to my mother, call to the captain Can't you see this state that I'm in I pray for forgiveness, looking for justice Searching for answers, call to my mother Pray for forgiveness, breaking the silence And nobody knows this, nobody noticed That it's me where it begins