I'm Sorry Baby

Help me I feel so numb Oh what have I become Oh god I feel so numb Oh what have I become I'm drowning in doubt I won't get another chance I made too many mistakes And fucked up all of our plans Shouldn't of broke your trust Woulda held onto you damn They say people don't change I swear to god that I can I feel so numb and so dumb Burnt up like the tip of a gun That shot twisted things spit from the tip of my tongue Karmas catching up like some wicked web that I've spun And it's like my life is over When it had only just begun Oh god what have I done What have I become I ain't even even high yet Why am I so fuckin dumb I just don't get it It all fell apart and I let it Made every mistake I'm indebted Said you loved me and you meant it Swore you regret it when you said it Self deprivation and I fed it I feel so damn pathetic But maybe I like the pain Maybe i like all the attention Maybe I am truly insane and I just forgot to mention Help me I feel so numb Oh what have i become Oh god i feel so numb Oh what have i become I'm so sorry baby I don't know what I'm doing lately I don't know who I am where we stand How to give back all you gave me I was falling and you saved me So why did I make you hate me Never would have betrayed me Nothin but fuckin faith in me I let judgment get the best of me I failed every time you tested me I've fucked shit up so carelessly And I've lived my life so recklessly Should've known you was protecting me Everybody else rejected me Now its fuck what they expect of me And i'll never let em get to me They wanna break then use what's left of me And shame all that I do But you make me see this through That light in me It comes from you So how could I lose you How could I just let you go You see the best in me especially when I don't You're the reason I wrote That whole god damn sound That beautiful feeling and flow that I found I am who I am because I have you around And I'm so fucking sorry that I ever let you down Help me I feel so numb Oh what have I become Oh god I feel so numb Oh what have I become