My Own Hell

I know what it means not to belong There where times in my life I was completely alone I need someone to blind my eyes You fucking left with the wind, left me behind Looking daggers behind a smile A flame of hate burns behind my eyes I tried to do things right all my life I don't take care for myself I couldn't please everyone Now my lips are wrapped around the barrel of a gun My sane mind is on the run I don't take care for myself I don't take care for myself I don't take care for myself Scared of the unknown just to follow your track If it leads to your goals at least I'll find my way back As weak as I am my dream is raped by your touch Even if I wanna see you die I need your fucking presence so much I can't make out what's right, what's wrong I just see your face and try to be strong I made myself sick, disguised in vain I made a fool out of myself just to play your game Scared of the unknown just to follow your track If it leads to your goals at least I'll find my way back As weak as I am my dream is raped by your touch Even if I wanna see you die I need your fucking presence so much In this life I am ensnared I am your slave and I'm scared Eternal hate for you I felt Even if I detest myself I belong in my own hell