Swan Song

Here I am, 38 years a man, 38 years to become this man And one day I'll be nothin' but footprints in the sand And I don't know if I can Carry on standin' in a land, I'm damned I keep offerin' you my hand It took an entire lifespan to understand that A million mistakes faced with a million billion trillion apologies, no difference makes You 'n' I are not the same, none of our synapse fire the same Segregate 'n' ignore the strange, there's too much change I'm on the last draft of the last page And it's almost over, time is tickin' out Now I see the smiles for what they are, they're just crooked mouths Speakin' empty words from empty heads They're good at conjurin' nothin' 'n' castin' doubt Looks like, I'm a have to live this one out But now my body is failin' 'n' now my mind has begun ailing And I'm sick of this sickness 'n' all the nightmares I've created Dreams have faded, replaced with an emptiness that I hate But in that emptiness there is hate I remember its taste I got one goal, that's to crush all those who oppose Destroy them all with the flow of a dark soul evolved If I got one flaw, it's that I can't quit on this road I made my choice, silence my voice, this is all I live for I'll never stop, until I drop Until my eyes roll back 'n' my body has begun to rot I'll stop, when I drop When my mind gives up 'n' the people have begun to watch Since 11 never wanted to be normal Now I'm 19 'n' rap has got a grip on me Now every bully who pulled me apart The pieces are collidin' 'n' ignitin' a spark, a fire in this dark heart My dreams are not comprehended by dreamers My dream is to have Reuben with a beamin' grin when I rap Steppin' in force with a wit that can rip so Takin' it back, breakin' the backs I'm realignin' the planets so I can hop, skip 'n' jump to Uranus And kick it, face it, the wordplay's just too far ahead Seems to be more up 'n' down than a see-saw This thesis leaves you in pieces, is he 19 Birds 'n' the bees man, I'm breezin' past it I'm grafted from granite Honestly the feud between me 'n' my mum, man dammit A calamity happened to Callum 'n' Fi 400 passed, now I gotta kick my own ass again Amassed with Matt again Guess I'm a bastard, time to find the right path again I got one goal, that's to crush all those who oppose Destroy them all with the flow of a dark soul evolved If I got one flaw, it's that I can't quit on this road I made my choice, silence my voice, this is all I live for I'll never stop, until I drop Until my eyes roll back 'n' my body has begun to rot I'll stop, when I drop When my mind gives up 'n' the people have begun to watch