Not Excited

I'm not excited, but should I be Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free I know I love you and you love the sea I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be Yeah, ayee We used to link after bio, now she got a child Asking people "PayPal me", with the link in the bio Things getting pretty wild, reality set it Got homies dead, in the pen, pregnant, some independent And meanwhile I fake smiles so they can tip me these Dead presidents I work so hard to collect (Have a good day sir) But no regrets, I know I'm blessed even though I'm stressed It's evident my job ain't heaven sent but I help my parents pay rent Every now and then I sit and think bout the world that we live Cleverly designed to keep mankind in sin Man I'm tryna commit some crimes, tired of honest living This mediocre conformity too boring to me But often find myself trapped in the same category I wasn't born insane, I was made this way Molded by the twisted life I'm living every day And lord know, I don't wanna rage But I'm trapped in my mind and I can't escape Feel like the man on the moon, I'm a solo dolo Me myself and I are my only true bros I'm so sociable when I am alone Couldn't tell you what's wrong, couldn't tell you what's left I wish I could quit fo' I lose my respect What? Huh? Yeah I'll tell you after Feeling like a catfish Poet disguised as a rapper, and uh... I'm not excited, but should I be Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free I know I love you and you love the sea I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be Yeah, ayee I wanna flip a couple bricks, but my conscience won't let me I'm plugged with my rellie making a killing, living like celebrity Dreams of racing Lamborghinis funded by me Coming up on your aunty gouda provoloni Getting fettuccini I mean these things I be thinking but never be meaning Just day dreaming of living life like Tony Montini Sipping margaritis with bad bikinis Upgrade Aquafina to the Fiji They be like no way, his third vacay up in Fiji Haha... yeah On the lowkey though, got a brodie flipping kilos Tried talkin me in as I was talking him out Selling white girl to the white girl was getting him clout I often fantasize about selling white They earning stripes, I got a 9-5 They catching bodies, I'm here saving lives, yeah I'm really out here saving As a teen I was tight and just wanted a Raven If I'm on, we all on so I know that we made it My homies roll deep, yeah we look like a nation Pull up to yo hood, reverse gentrification San Francisco money dancing, like a disco they blinging Calabasas getting casas, what I'm tryna see Getting money lowkey, or profiting on TV Not like when I saw my dude the news cuz all the people he juiced Wanted for his arrest Hitting fools with a piece upside their head Now he in a county blue pen (free Roc) Went to the mall and robbed a JCPen Catch us they wasn't, but caught your cousin running Didn't stop there, home invasion Now my wodie ain't here (free Der) Home invasion was persuasive That's not what I preach, that's not what I do No stick up for loot like some in my crew Now in the pen, blowing my phone up like Samsung Asking for ends, came through even though I barely had none I make money, money don't make me I hate money, but hustle addicting Not addicted to work, but might OD on this OT More than 40 hours a week so I deserve this 40 Right? 40oz to head but the problems still there I won't do nothing wrong Ain't tryna disappoint mom So I got this new job But uhh... I'm not excited, but should I be Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free I know I love you and you love the sea I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be