John's Lament (feat. Michael Lepore)

Five years ago, I bought a cat To keep me company and that Wasn't enough so I bought a dog Now in this house that's full of pets Pill bottles, vodka, and regrets I still sit around and slap my hog Why can't the hole ever be filled Not even with illegal pills Cheap gin and whiskey, worthless stuff And now the best thing that was in my world My lover Lizz, my golden girl She tells me that I'm just not good enough She thinks that I'm a nut Well Lizz, you know what? It's time, the world will come and see That I'm John Arbuckle and you will all remember me I'll be the man they can't ignore Put up with this too long, and I won't take shit anymore You can't hold me down if I put you in the ground It's just the pills saying this now I've got to get a grip somehow "Side effects include fits of rage" This rush that's soaring through my veins I can't describe, I can't explain Someone should lock me in a cage Twenty four years ago when I was six My parents got me a therapist For all my violent tendencies Twenty years ago when I was ten They got me a therapist again For killing our dog, Eloise Carving canines with my knife How did I lose that lust for life? It's time, the world will come and see That I'm John Arbuckle and you all will remember me It's time that I start fighting back You better look out assholes, I'm plotting my first attack You can't hold me down if I put you in the ground "John, this is your doctor, your mental health has lost control." "John, this is the police, and murder violates parole." "John, this is your mother, and murder is a big no-no." "John, this is Charles Manson, and murder is sooo worth it, bro." Thought I could make it through this life Settle down with my pets, three children, and a caring wife I guess that love's just not for me But I can't fake a life of forced complacent normalcy I wonder if I kill, will the hole inside be filled?