Disco Ball

Well, it hurt too much to pray for it So I sold my shit to pay for it Now I'm ragged and I'm lean Bearing the dead weight of a dream But I remember it well, I remember it clear That moment I said I've gotta get outta here Singing that Holiday tune Drinking whisky alone in my room A drunken train wreck with a sense of direction Gonna make it outta here despite your affection Said, "If I don't break free, then it'll break me" But the sun doesn't shine in the back of that hall And everybody scatters when you start to fall Well, if you crack that mirror when you hit the wall Baby, go and make yourself a disco ball Let your light scatter and fall Through it all When I first started out, people said I was bold They didn't realize I was running from the fear of getting old And visions of my future self With a cigarette hanging out of my mouth And a hairnet on in some kitchen down south My potential soaked in gin Talking about what I could've been So I sold myself to the American dream I got a predatory loan with my spirit on lien They say, "You can make it if you try" Then they'll stand around watching you dying And I see the luck drying up wherever I go Vacant windows, foreclosed homes I may be lost, but I am not alone So if the sun doesn't shine in the back of your hall If everybody scatters when you start to fall Well, if you crack that mirror when you hit the wall Baby, go and make yourself a disco ball And let your light scatter and fall Let your light scatter and fall Through it all