Painz of a Lost Man

I'm broken in my mind been this way since child Who can I trust when blood don't Fuck with me Sit an smile in my face an tell they miss me Why am I still feeling all this fake energy Going thru emotions like the waves of the ocean Or the pain of paper as a poet jot wit the pen Sins of a man that rebuttal an repent Tryna make a wrong right by bumping ya head But we live an we learn and learn how to live Born to a queen from a incompetent male As we strive to survive but wonder why we alive If we die in the end what's the reason we alive Cause not everybody get get to be child It's Craz an a shamed as we running thru the maze Sipping Liq pop pills trying to escape These the pains of a lost man This music keep me rolling Holding all this smoke in This Kush got me choking Tryna live the best life That I can Only God can judge me For my sins These the pains of a lost man This music keep me rolling Holding all this smoke in This Kush got me choking Tryna live the best life That I can Only God can judge me For my sins We Run to facebook an IG tweeting about why we stressing Instead of looking at what's depressing Turn around look at what's your blessing One foot after the other like Ms. Tubman I been more of a man then my father ever was Full custody of my son since I was 19 It turned me a grown man from a adolescents Thank to my Miz she's truly a blessing ShyMar and Nahzar 4 years I've been gone Thru distance an depression I left yall both dad less I apologize to my kids for everything I then did I never meant to hurt yall but I did I should of already knew the pain it would cause I truly miss yall And I learned my lesson