I'm Lying

I just like... I've never really talked about this, you know? Yeah I pray the Lord my soul to keep This can't be fixed, I'd rather weep I hate this house, I'm dying to leave My mom's a snake, my dad, he drinks Don't know my dad, he don't know me We're not like how we used to be We don't connect, we hardly speak He tries to drive, I hide the keys I'm babysitting a grown man at 17, at 17 He's fuckin' pissed and starts to scream My heart races and skips a beat We're face to face, I can't believe That every day's the same old thing We fight all night, I hardly sleep I wish he'd listen to me plead A sober you is what we need This wears me thin, I'm feeling weak I feel hopeless to say the least, fuck He never slows down, uh, never slows down on the whisky The more shots he takes, the more risky Most times, things tend to go south quickly He's depending on liquor, we're depending on him He's calling outta work, there's no money coming in We're about to lose the house, how can we let it slip? Factor in the fact that I have to hold all of it in I hate when... They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" I sigh, they know, deep down, I'm lyin' They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" I sigh, they know, deep down, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' I'm broke and empty inside Fuck Yeah I pray the Lord my soul to take I lost my hope, I lost my faith I hate this house, wish I'd escape My dad's a drunk, my mom's a snake Don't know my mom, she don't know me She's out all night and can't be traced It's been a week, ain't seen her face We hardly speak, what can I say? I'm dealing with a grown woman who can't be saved, who can't be saved She's lost her mind, she's a lost case She's filled with greed, I'm dying to say It don't matter how much you make When you account how much you've waste She blows her checks, she gambles late She takes her shot, we're in her aim She doesn't stop, the bills aren't paid She blames my dad when she's to blame Tell me, how much more can I take? Fuck She never slows down, uh, never slows down on the gambling Her life falls apart as time passes She's blind to all of the things that can happen She's losing control and she can't get a grip She's addicted to the slots, there's no money coming in We're about to lose the house, how can we let it slip? Factor in the fact that I had to hold all of it in I hate when... They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" I sigh, they know, deep down, I'm lyin' They ask, "How's life?" I'm like, "It's fine" I sigh, they know, deep down, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' Ooh, I'm lyin' I'm broke and empty inside Yeah I'm broken, I'm broken, I'm broken I'm broke and empty inside