In the Process

All that I know has been shattered And broken by choices I made on my own in the process All of the promises made to me don't seem that real in my eyes now I'm sure that I've lost it They got my heart open, here for them till it's stopping But everyone thinks it won't stop, they think that it is golden They don't see all that's happening at night If you'd see you'd know something's not right But I'll keep it shut so I'm the only one who knows Look into my eyes and tell me what do you see You don't need to know the feel I get when I breathe I can only find the peace I need in my dreams Wish I could lay down and stay forever asleep Please send me on my way Onto the clouds I'll stay And be the angel for the ones that need me All that I know has been shattered And broken by choices I made on my own in the process All of the promises made to me don't seem that real in my eyes now I'm sure that I've lost it Can't stand the thought that I'm the one I thought that I'd never become I used to be a whole lot different Now I can't leave my bed It makes me wonder do I have the right to hope for a better future With no cross to bear, now I don't seem to care All that I know has been shattered And broken by choices I made on my own in the process All of the promises made to me don't seem that real in my eyes now I'm sure that I've lost it The wasted years have formed A pille of broken bones There's nothing I can do The blood shed from the war I fought covered the floor The pills won't get me through I've been misled In my own head And as I reach out to the sky My mind shining ever so bright Staying locked inside My thoughts collide And when I close my eyes in bed I will be wishing I was dead All that I know has been shattered And broken by choices I made on my own in the process In the process