New Halloween

Somehow it's already been a year Embracing other versions to make this feeling disappear Now I just feel you everywhere It coincides with the guilt of knowing that I wasn't there I was told that wouldn't have known Told myself I was where you'd want me to be But it's not that easy I tried to be your light Did my best to shine Nothing I do feels right As I went out all the time How has it already been a year? I skip over songs because they're too hard to hear Like track two on "Benji" or "What Sarah Said" They just hit too close when I'm already in my head I was told you were half asleep Told myself you would be proud of me But it's not that easy I tried to be your light Did my best to shine Nothing I do feels right As I went out all the time Somehow it's already been a year You keep finding new ways to make yourself reappear I hope you never leave me be I haven't found the courage to listen to your last message to me