Soul Searchin

(Hmm) Hmm Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm (Jay, stoke this) Yeah I came inside this bitch alone So that's how I'm gon' leave Remember when I first thought it Ain't no one believed And that's the shit that left me hardest Now they finna see I'ma finish what I started, promise I'll achieve They see the fame, but they don't see the pain I done been through everything Baby, I done seen the rain Lost my grandma sixteen years ago That shit still weighin' on me And this white hill by my side Because these niggas preyin' on me That's real shit Pain pills couldn't heal this And you can give a bitch the world But in the end, they gon' still switch I'm speakin' for the real niggas that gon' feel this And how you say you spent the block But you ain't kill shit I was always taught to listen 'fore I speak I was really in the field Ten toes with no cleats Keep enemies close And watch the company you keep And you can't feel my pain 'Cause my pain run deep Lately I been soul searchin' Tryna find my whole purpose The shit I seen, it made my heart bleed But I can't let them demons haunt me Murder runnin' through my conscience So lately, I've been movin' cautious 'Cause I know niggas wanna kill me So, I'ma let these niggas feel me I'm just grateful that I'm livin' Lord, can I get a witness? I'm supposed to be dead Them bullets missed my head by some inches Fuck another nigga business I'ma mind mine My life hard You can't walk a mile inside my size 9's I lost too many niggas Wish I could rewind time Feel like I never had a purpose I'm prayin' I find mine The proper preparation Dedication equals greatness I do this for my family My siblings my motivation Just steady dodgin' penitentiaries This life I live was sent to me Coulda cut a nigga off Motherfuck the history A lotta hate up in the air I can't let it get to me A lotta money everywhere Get that shit by any means Fuck a label Them niggas tried to end my career I'm knowin' that my time is near They tryna leave me in the rear I don't fear nigga Goin' broke is my only fear Lord, I'm sending up a prayer I'm hopin' that you can hear Lately I been soul searchin' Tryna find my whole purpose The shit I seen, it made my heart bleed But I can't let them demons haunt me Murder runnin' through my conscience So lately, I've been movin' cautious 'Cause I know niggas wanna kill me So, I'ma let these niggas feel me Ah, ah, ah, mmm Ah, ah, ah, mmm