There is what needs to be heard
And there's what needs to be said
So I am writing letters I won't ever send
The average person doesn't have a mic when they vent
So I'm sorry if I make you upset
It takes practice being honest with yourself
But I know now
I'm the author of my personal hell
I just can't find a good place to start
Repairing the structural damage to my heart
I mean is there anything in there worth keeping?
Or should I just take it all apart?
I've been watching the clouds
I've been going for walks
I've been learning how to have important talks
You're doing dishes in the other room
Fighting off the fear that your best friends all hate you
There are thoughts
There are emotions
There are facts
It's a convoluted, complicated task
To assemble the Venn diagram
Breathe in deeply from your diaphragm
And believe that you have family here
You have family here, you have
So we re-teach ourselves all the basic things
Like how to get out of bed when the alarm clock rings
How to respond to texts
How to balance needs
It takes practice
It takes practice
It takes
