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My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad Dear future self, where do I start? They wouldn't be so hard on me if they knew my heart If they knew the trials and tribulations that I was facin Just to get up on that mic Their dissaprovin faces But truthfully I understand at first glance I wouldn't give me a chance either that's just human nature But the hate they spew at me is equal to or greater That of someone wantin me to say see ya later Off myself, stop my breathing, words with hateful meanin Make me drop down to my knees and just pray to Jesus To keep my mind from these dark thoughts that's creepin in I thought I was strong enough but I'm weakenin It's crazy this world is really ran by guys They don't look for females' talents They listen with their eyes But I gotta keep goin, I know that's a must I just hope tomorrow's better It's ya girl, just My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad Dear future self This shit is gettin harder I'm not gettin the credit I deserve, I should be farther And everyone's so scared to take a leap of faith Even though they know I'm great I'm surrounded by spineless and mindless fakes They won't consign, they're waiting for someone else I'm drownin I'm barely alive Waitin for someone to help They goin in on me online Why do I fuckin rhyme Bitch, you fuckin white Go kill your self tonight Plus your ugly, you got no ass, your looks are trash I wouldn't fuck you with his dick wrapped in a garbage bag Girls are even worse A pussy's a gift and a curse God forbid a bitch praisin another bitch We don't even know our own worth I feel a number on my days The end is on it's way I walk around in a haze, depression ain't no phase My breath is gettin short, my spirit gettin heavy I feel the weight of the words I think I must be ready My brain is consumed with the deepest, darkest, evil thoughts I try to shake it out my head, my better judgement lost And all along I put my all into every song I don't get how doin somethin you love could ever be so wrong I guess I'll sleep on it, I'm tired I don't remember what I took, but I'm higher My diary the only one I trust I hope tomorrow's better Your girl, just My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad Dear future self I'm a decade deep I been grindin 10 years and they still don't mention me? What are they stupid? Do they not hear me on these tracks? I knew I should of let what's his name put it in my ass They went and got Kesha, Nicky, and Iggy I know it's not a lot of girls, but why didn't they pick me? I mean it's clear no one does what I do I sing, I rap, and I write my own shit too I don't give a fuck, fuck the whole industry Fuck every label head I hope they all die fuckin miserably I hope your kids never ever meet their dreams I hope your plane crashes, you and your whole team Ain't that funny? Look what you fools do to me I hope they get that shit right at your and my eulogy I hope we both rot in hell together, we deserve it Me for wishin this wicked and you for destroyin my purpose And for every lonely troll online I hope you develop the most aggressive form of cancer of the spine Decay your body, while your mind is still intact And Ima send a postcard that reads "I got your back" But you won this time Every dog has it's day Cuz now I'm standin on a chair and I'm just one push away From finally bein at peace, blockin my sorrow And now I don't have to worry about a better tomorrow My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad Dear Justina I know you're fightin demons But nothing in this world that's worth it, ever comes too easy The human mind can play tricks, it gets dark and gory It takes 10 years for an overnight success story Just keep going, the journey's never perfect I know the way they're treatin you is crazy But I promise it's worth it You're gonna fall a few more times Don't mind the stumble Take my word, there's a light here that ends the tunnel It's more to it than the eye could ever see You know that show with Nick Cannon Yea, the one that's on MTV Well that's right, Wild 'N Out, they about to hit you You about to join on for Season 8, now that's official Things are lookin up, people recognize your flow You about to see, the world is gonna know you're cold And everything's about to blow up from there You're a household name People they stop and they stare And years later, look, you chillin got a family At the crib, 3 Oscars and 5 Grammies It's crazy, I mean life is but a dream All of this is an outcome you could have never seen Wait, hold up, everything's turnin' to grey The babies, the grammies, everything's slippin' away Fuck, forget what I said This is what could have been, you're dead