Crash

Thought you'd let me know but I don't see you typing I could say some shit but I don't see us fighting Always said you're busy making new excuses Sick of counting seconds cause it's been a minute I tried to call you but it bounced back I hear the dial tone more than your real voice I see the blue ticks more than your real face I'm getting sea sick the way he sways the boat You call him pied piper when he lays the viper I'd let you go but then I'd lose a friend I lost too many so just play your part I know you're happy so I'm happy for you But it makes me angry when you make up stories Then you try to tell me that you're really sorry Now it's kinda hollow or am I just tripping? Maybe overthinking why we're kinda distant? Cause I could probably overlook it but I'm scared that you lied Like the boy who cried wolf I guess I'm picking a side If I have to call again I'm hanging up cause I tried And I don't wanna cut you off but I have to decide Crashing in on myself (I'm crashing in) Screaming out of my mind (Screaming out) I'm sick of being lied to (Sick of being lied to) And I don't wanna fight you (And I don't wanna fight you) But I don't wanna hate you My circle's small without you I'm trapped inside my own thoughts (And I'm trapped down but I'm) I've settled down I'm better now but I'm Crashing in on myself (I'm crashing in) Screaming out of my mind (Screaming out) I'm sick of being lied to (Sick of being lied to) And I don't wanna fight you (And I don't wanna fight you) But I don't wanna hate you My circle's small without you I'm trapped inside my own thoughts (And I'm trapped down but I'm) I've settled down I'm better now but I'm I'm crashing in on myself I'm crashing in Screaming out of my mind I think I'm overcompensating for my feelings I tried To never leave you with a choice that forces you to decide Between the people that you need I understand why you lied I know it's really not your fault cause it just happens with time Or maybe I'm lying To you and to myself and how I hated the change You know I never double text and so I'm partly to blame I'm sick of cycles repeating seeking a different route to truths That I don't know how to handle Maybe that's an excuse Maybe I'm looking for reasons not to link up with you Maybe I think that I'm better if I just cut you loose But I don't know if I want it Never wanted to choose Balance my feelings I'm scared that you never call again Abandon my thinking afraid that I never call again Stare at my phone and then pause and I think of what to say But it's always the same It's always the same I don't give a fuck If I tell you how I feel then would you give him up I know you know that I don't really love you I just wanna be the one that makes you scream at God Have your body clutch your soul admit defeat Just let me beat it feel this heat until you need it Have you screeching on repeat Singing hallelujah