No, Pain

It's hard for me to accept what I am and how I've changed, and that's crazy But I'm still filled with so much hatred that's been bottled up over the ages No one know what goes on in my mind, and no one knows how hard I've tried No one flows through this world like I, hiding inside, lost in plain sight Like the Joker stealing Harvey, who was the best of us Is now Two-Face It's sad what became of him, a twisted fate I grew to idolize the joker and his ways Every hero needs an antagonist To discover a true self in times of sadness You will either overcome the darkness Or become the character of tragedy They say to fake it until you make it But, what if you never make it Is all that's left behind a mask or disguise Or is it... take it, until you break Huh... I don't like either of those options, man When negative thoughts circle in, I shut my brain down And I'm forced to accept it But, when positive thoughts arise, I can start clappin' When these positive thoughts get me high, I can start laughin' The drivin' force in life is doin' what feels good So we do what feels good, fuck, just wanna feel good But how come there's times when we seize to feel good Even though we know we could say fuck it, and find the hood It's this one bittersweet anomaly called pain Disguised as sunshine through the rain The cries give rise for it to drive you to hell If you give me the time, I can explain I used to use it and abuse it Use it as an excuse, to make true music I thought I harnessed the power, thought it could be tamed But it's a sour game, in a no-win situation Too easy to give in, love the buzz through my veins A different kind of feeling from my toes to my brain Lose myself - control? See Ya later Anger and rage, best friends with Darth Vader Pain is both a cause and effect; it can make us a wreck or keep us in check Checks and balances, I could always count on this Love to fight against the Dark Knight No, Pain Don't fire the flame The laughter lights Me ablaze No, Pain No, not today 'Cause after time I know you'll go away Way a ways Just to take a step in place Sometimes, I'm reminded by The fun times I've been blinded by Keep me awake, keep me sane It's 'cause they keep the pain at bay This can only be taken day by day Ya gotta move onward; you can never stay I always used to fake it but wondered what would remain Pain causes everything to change Pain changes people, molds people, shapes people, and scolds people If you're broken and you ain't fixin', you're just diggin' that hole deeper Until nothin' is left but a surrogate A mindless body on autopilot And even if you want to, you can't throw a fit 'Cause you'll have no emotion; you'll be lost from within So please, don't ever Make sufferin' your religion It will not seize to deceive, and will keep on, and on givin' Accept and move on from the causes of pain Like guilt, greed, or shame Tell them to get lost, tell them to fuck off 'Cause there is everything to gain No, Pain Don't fire the flame The laughter lights Me ablaze No, Pain No, not today 'Cause after time I know you'll go away Now, the aftermath crash, that's what's comin' up Darkness don't discriminate; in effect, it elects who it wants When you move on, keep on runnin' along Know you're not alone; you've got to stay strong The tale of the wrath could at first be a mess But, the greatest victory is a comeback The void left behind needs to find Something that will bind and heal over time Pain just doesn't magically go away It's replaced, but would love to come back and stay I'll tell you from experience; it used to be my bible I really hope that you're hearing this, 'cause it's not one to be trifled with But now, its only purpose Is to serve as a reminder But now, its only purpose is to serve as a reminder Remind me of the blinded times, binded and confined inside Thank you, pain For the price you made me pay 'Cause your reminder of Darkness Is why I'm here today Yo, Pain Hope you enjoyed your stay 'Cause this is the last time You're gonna say my name