I'm so sorry
Is this uncomfortable for you
If I don't smile and shave my head
With this be palatable for you
Is the way I am
Causing you distress
Have you noticed the claws
Coming out from my dress
It doesn't look like something
You know, and that's okay
It's not you that has to
Live it every day
Is this safe to talk about here
Will I be screamed at on the street for being queer
What a lonely life it must be
To live in fear so comfortably
I could have had a history
The illness took that all from me
I always had a missing part
I always had a missing part
I let them take that from my heart
Try as you may, you will never erase me
Or your mistakes
This bloodline dies with me.
I wish I could unpromise you
And will my heart to be untrue
But when I've felt the climb uphill
I see my heart is waiting still
A heavy thought to carry well
I see that tree beyond the dell
Where time was flat and blood was spilled
I sheathed my heart up to the hilt
I didn't know I promised, there
To never let it feel the air
Until I leave that all behind
I'll never have peace of mind
