God, Sex, & Shame

Why's it feel like Heaven's gonna fall for doing something natural? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Why's it feel like the world's gonna end for loving a good man? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Post-sex tears at 23 It's got me running to the shower Hoping that he don't see Running hot water, hoping it turns holy, holy, I-I-I Purity ring 'til 17 Tried to be the perfect flower, let somebody pluck me Really shouldn't matter, doesn't God love me, love me? I-I-I Why's it feel like Heaven's gonna fall for doing something natural? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Why's it feel like the world's gonna end for loving a good man? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Boys will be boys but girls should be virgins Boys will be boys but girls should be virgins I was a little girl in a Baptist church "Save yourself" was all I heard from men in suits on stages Cheating on their wives, acting all holy, holy, yea-yeah There's all these fuckin' rules about Heaven, uh I don't even know what I believe in But I'm tired of hearing how I won't get in If I ain't no, 'cause I ain't a virgin Why's it feel like Heaven's gonna fall for doing something natural? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Why's it feel like the world's gonna end for loving a good man? Uh I'm still stuck between God, sex, and shame, oh Boys will be boys but girls should be virgins Boys will be boys but girls should be virgins I know you love me, I really do and I wanna have a relationship with you I'm just so confused This is all so scary for me to say 'Cause I've never outwardly questioned my faith, ever They tell me something's been taken from me Have taken my body and my purity And they swear it, in your name That sex before marriage ruins everything But did I ruin everything? I wish I could just call you so we could talk about these things