Suicide on My Mind

Suicide on my fucking mind I don't wanna die Yeah, yeah Fuck the clout, take it back I just want love, but these bitches don't fuck with that (Yeah) Fucked with that bitch off cap Winning this shit for my team like a running back Fuck the hoes, they don't know All of the pain that I feel when I'm all alone Go and kill every show People might think, but I'm not on my pinnacle Lately, I'm feeling so spiritual Wake up some days, and I feel it's a miracle (Yeah) I'm a unique individual Money, go get it, I make it a ritual (Yeah) Call it a ritual, you think it's mystical I think it's practical, you don't think tactical Thinking mathematical, this is a ladder flow I'm skipping levels now, I want the photo gold I don't give a fuck about the other hoes 'Cause my old ways got my brain gon' loco And the cocoa got my days moving slo-mo On the low dough missed cheesin' for the photos Gotta phone home to my mom that I'm so, so Sorry 'bout Christmas, always in my no show One more cuff from the popo and my P-O Gonna lock me up for my next show (Yeah) Suicide on my fucking mind, I don't wanna die I just wanna live, but this life gets so hard sometimes I don't know what's right, yeah, what's wrong, I can't find the time In my out of line, happiness, it's so hard to find Suicide on my fucking mind, I don't wanna die I just wanna live, but this life gets so hard sometimes I don't know what's right, yeah, what's wrong, I can't find the time In my out of line, happiness, it's so hard to find Suicide pull it to my brain, I can't maintain I might go insane, 'cause this light only brings pain Slit wrists, I don't feel shit as my heart skips Close my eyes, I'm in paradise, I won't miss this Everything about me that everybody ever knew People want to think I was the happy king of school But I barely keep my cool, with a smile on my face Kids, just slow her down, this life ain't a race And the people that hating on you, yeah they all fake But I'm closed, break about what their parents all make But I'll promise that you'll get there know that it's not fair If you wanna die, talk to someone that feels great And I know that your heart hurts, trust me, I've been there Life takes a sacrifice that some people can't bear Stay strong, stay around, it'll get better Take a lot up on that suicide letter The pain inside will never go away You can learn how to deal with it more every day And it won't feel the same as it did when you were broken Although it won't leave your heart will still open Suicide on my fucking mind, I don't wanna die I just wanna live, but this life gets so hard sometimes I don't know what's right, yeah, what's wrong, I can't find the time In my out of line, happiness, it's so hard to find Suicide, pull it to my brain, I can't maintain I might go insane 'cause this light only brings pain Slit wrists, I don't feel shit as my heart skips Close my eyes, I'm in paradise, I won't miss this