Join the Dead

Falling head over heels in pain Wondering what could have led to this mistake Black washes over me I cannot see, this cannot be Yet I know what I have done Can't take this back, I am to blame No, this was not my fault What of my friends or family? What'd they do to deserve this Neglected me, felt only a passive love for me I refuse to believe This so called life was not Just passing time until the end Choose based on others' choices Live based on others' morals Failure to follow suit Leads only to painful punishment I chose instead to join the dead I hear them calling me I won't be fooled, they never cared Never Ignore the plethora of Sweet nothings and hollow offers Quiet Respond with catatonic Blank stares, false smiles Fall Become enraptured with This endless void I now have joined Keep falling until timeless sleep I refuse to believe This so called life was not Just passing time until the end Choose based on others' choices Live based on others' morals Failure to follow suit Leads only to painful punishment I chose instead to join the dead As I continue To fall into the black I'm so surprised To find I haven't died A glance overhead Reveals a far off light I now suspect This may not be the end Flung into the void Must I now sow what I've reaped? Am I now fated to fall forevermore? Is this the end or the beginning? Tumbling again and again and again Hurtling towards an unknown destination Crash landing, terra firma Breathing dark air, seeing nothing Hearing harsh screaming Of unknown and yet close origin Breathless and broken Blameless and beaten Loss of consciousness Tunneling vision Red pain and choked tears Freed now at last Like so many fallen stars Forgotten once moments passed This shambling withered husk Joins the dead As I no longer Fall into the black This lifeless body Rests on the hard cold earth It finds no comfort In such a dreamless sleep Laying in gentle repose As all the others weep I refuse to believe This so called life was not Just passing time until the end Choose based on others' choices Live based on others' morals Failure to follow suit Leads only to painful punishment I chose instead to join the dead