I Don't Know Myself

I don"t know What to think I don"t know How to feel No joy Nothing sad Just vast emptiness Here I lie on my bed Smoking cigs Having drinks I don"t care what"s outside What"s inside I don"t know myself I don"t know What to yearn I don"t know How to hope Dead mind Palsied soul Slowly crumbling away Partly left Partly gone I am weak I am tired No more dreams Only sleep I am mute I am deaf