The Way I Can't (feat. Zaid Tabani)

Yeah I don't know what's wrong with my heart And why I only write songs in the dark Or why I try at relationships In the end they just all fall apart I knew that I was wrong from the start 'Cuz I knew that I had fall to my stars I was in no condition for this shit You could see it written on all of my my scars Fuck, it's really hard to stop where we are Simply 'cuz we gotten this far Seems like yesterday we were drunk takin' shots in the car Right before we got in the bar Talkin' bout life and nights That we had with some lost loves And exactly what it cost us Like how I have a tendency to not trust And no empathy when turnin' girls hearts into sawdust But not you, not us I could tell that you cared I could see it in your eyes Now-a-days I can see it when you cry Every time that I scream and I leave you deprived Of affection and a connection This relationship needs to survive And I act like I don't need you, But without your love I really think I would die You shouldn't have to love me the way I am The way I am Uh You shouldn't have to love me the way I am The way I am Tear your heart into pieces so it can look just like mine And I show you my weakness so you can see what it's like And I, I wish I could love you the way I can't But I can't, yeah Hold on Maybe it's the way I was raised Maybe it's the way that my dad used to yell Maybe the way I pray for a change everyday 'Cuz I don't wanna' put you through the hell 'Cuz I really hate that you're caged like a bird Hate that you say it's absurd I just hate bein' hurt so I give you demands Never gonna' give you the chance You're gonna' have to break me in first Lately it's worse Call me crazy but it may be a curse Take me to church My demons are eating away at her worth That whenever I drink I pray that it works But even when I'm not drunk I can feel numb Yeah, I got a lot of love but I feel none I was shown how to love by my dad so it's sad 'Cuz even if you're the one I'ma' still run I can still find flaws in perfection Yeah, even when it's not the intention Even when it's not what I want and We got the connection It can all stop in a second And it's not that I'm not interested, disconnected 'Cuz my thoughts intercepted I'm so sorry for the harm, it's pathetic I hope one day that my call is accepted You shouldn't have to love me the way I am The way I am Uh You shouldn't have to love me the way I am The way I am Tear your heart into pieces So it can look just like mine Then I'll show you my reasons so you can see what it's like And I, I wish I could love you the way I can't But I can't Huh