The Light

I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine And I'll make the choice to find the light Uh, yeah And I don't know when this will end, yeah And I don't know how I'll descend, uh But I know that I ain't going back to that old rap So I know classics back then just ain't my friend But the faith ain't here, and the rest is clear Yeah I'm restless near But alone I'm drenched in fear to be the best this year Man I miss my peers I'm lost inside my dreams but please just come back I wanna go back to the past like I never started rap Passions that I thought I lacked made a difference Now I'm selling tracks Listen I want a new me, I wanna send all my apologies Last year I had a friend base, now intimidated to talk to me Friend-base now a fan-base, was it worth it Not a little bit Probably just all my ego battled me till I'm losing it Moving into new homes, so kudos but I'm new to this I wanna quit but I'll never give in, music is my only sin I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine And I'll make the choice to find the light I don't wanna play the victim but I'm contemplating my life Yeah my family ain't there for me cause money's what we bribe So I'm forced to play the bad guy hoping that I'm on your side But if I ain't sending money to the bank I ain't worth the love inside Look at me inside my eye and tell me That you love me more than money ever buys Put it up inside a letter hoping that I better open up, I'm dead inside I don't wanna be another man who Never made the family look at in pride But if I had it my I would never make a living off of music And I tried to be the bigger man Yes I can't afford to send my cash But notice that I am the realist brother, son and friend And I wish nothing but the best, I love you all until the end But I can't handle being nothing but another band I won't ever save your debt I'm nothing but a crutch, a savior Wanna be the one that's there and never giving up, it's fair I've wanted all the love, I'm here And now I see it's clear I'm chasing pain and now I don't know if I wanna be that famous I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine And I'll make the choice to find the light I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine And I'll make the choice to find the light