Dealing With It

The day started off with a touch of bliss And some faded regrets Thought that I was ridding myself Of the pain that they caused, overwhelming dread But one hit me up, and texted means things I began to hear my loud heartbeats Now the feelings return and repeat That little girl is back to haunt me Oh oh oh oh It cuts so deep, I start to bleed No sign of ease, I'm suffocating My heart can't seem to move on The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind The pain was supposed to be gone Hiding somewhere way way afar Now I see all this anger in me I really just need some time to breathe So can't you let this just be I need to deal with the shit in me And now I start to remember the times I was left alone all behind And I don't know why it's taken this long For me to see it's hurting Reliving the force on that bed When all I see is the faces thats blurred And then the time in the back of his car The pressure so strong pushing back inside Oh oh oh oh It cuts so deep, I start to bleed No sign of ease, I'm suffocating My heart can't seem to move on The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind The pain was supposed to be gone Hiding somewhere way way afar Now I see all this anger in me I really just need some time to breathe So can't you let this just be I need to deal with the shit in me Wounded and scarred Reminded so often I'm stuck in this prison With cold scary monsters Oh oh oh oh My heart can't seem to move on The thoughts go on, on and on in my mind The pain was supposed to be gone Hiding somewhere way way afar Now I see all this anger in me I really just need some time to breathe So can't you let this just be I need to deal with the shit in me Oh oh oh oh